And I've been thinking. Why wasn't my husband asked if he hadn't noticed anything different? It seems an obvious assumption that in a married couple there might be some activity that would reveal an abnormality. Just wondering, that's all.
I can't look forward to that feeling of "There! That's done and now I can get on with my life", but rather there's a lot of fear about what the test may reveal. I know the wisdom of remaining positive in my thinking, but my modus operandi all these years has been to get ready mentally for the worst and then exalt in the good news that usually results. It's worked for me, up until now. It feels as though everything is changing, all at once. And it's scary.